Stairway to Heaven


If your dreams don't scare you, they're not big enough.  -  Muhammad Ali


I hope all had a wonder filled holiday season.  I enjoyed a restful and fun filled holiday and am ready for 2017! Let's get this party started!

I realize you may wonder where I've been. The summer Olympics and Usain Bolt where the topic of my last newsletter.  Truth be told, I was singing! Since childhood I have been a soloist, chorister and performer. Mom's breakdown in 2002 combined with self employment kept me from regularly scheduled extra curricular activities. It's been a long haul! Since my Mom's passing a year ago, I am slowly rediscovering who I am after 14 years as a caregiver.

 In September, I joined a church choir.  We performed very successful concerts for Veterans and Christmas and a large Christmas Eve service. I even had a solo during advent. Without singing, a part of me was missing. It is sheer bliss to share the gift of song. Music is a form of healing. It is very cathartic for performer and audience. It opens the heart. Music was my first healing modality and I have continued to expand the expression of love through holistic arts. I am happy and content.

In the years of caring for my mother, I thought the anguish and heartache would never end. What I learned is life is impermanent and all things, good or bad, no matter the duration, END! Except love of course! Love is the only real true thing in the Universe. All living things are made of this love energy. Love never dies, it simply changes forms. Personally, I love change and pray for it frequently but don't often like the changes sent my way. Our ego loves to build false security by anchoring down in material structure and patterns. The ego part of our brain hates and fears.  The soul longs to be free, unfettered by the chaos of the world.  Creativity of any kind feeds the soul. We are responsible for our own happiness.  We can choose happiness no matter the course of the day to day world. The key is when you feel afraid or angry tell your ego to "knock it off, go to your room." In this way we can reroute our brain to focus on the peace within.

The magnitude of changes we will face in this new year is inconceivable and so are the results. The old world is falling. The new is in place. We are moving from the hamster wheel of Karma to the Golden Spiral Staircase of evolution. With hope and courage we can  make the leap of faith and simply live our truth. No event or person can change the substance of your soul. So what do we "do"? LIVE! Have fun! Spend time with loved ones. Make time for the things you love. Create! Follow your dreams. Do not waste one precious moment on anything or anyone negative. Be present and be the best you, you can be each moment. Take action from your heart instead of re-acting to the chaos of the world. This year is about rediscovering YOU! If you live from your soul guidance ALL, everything, you need will be created by or attracted to your soul. You will be well cared for by the Divine Love of your soul.  What must be surrendered for this to happen is control. That needs to be surrendered to the Divine. Wake up! Hold fast to integrity of thought and deed, kindness, courtesy, compassion. Our behavior is our responsibility and our legacy.

Make the your heart the most beautiful thing about you!  - Evolver Social Movement

Going for Gold


When a butterfly is ready to emerge from its chrysalis, it chews a tiny hole in one end and forces its stunning new form through the small orifice.
Within this "struggle" of emergence, liquids from deep inside the butterfly's body are passed into the capillaries of its wings, then harden to ensure the strength and capability required for a butterfly to survive and fly.
When denied of this "struggle," the butterfly dies.
When you are struggling, rest easy in the understanding that you are a warrioress, dedicated to the ripened rewards of a proper initiation.   - Astromissive#329

Summer of fun and discovery. That was my intention. I did some drumming at Omega Institute in NY, toured the Rhinebeck area and had a wonderful and refreshing stay at Hemingway Lane B&B. I planted flowers. I painted a picture. I had a great healing session with a shaman, ate at a French cafe and purchased a new yoga mat. I read a book and took naps on a wonderful and relaxing beach vacation with my beloved. I had the sacred and holy experience of releasing my Mom's ashes into the ocean. She loved the ocean and was a tremendous swimmer. It was her request and quite possibly the only time in our lives "I made her happy!"  LOL! The experience freed me in many unexpected ways. I am grateful for it.

As many of you know, music was my first love.  I started singing in first grade. In my late thirties, I decided to build on two other long time passions. I took my part time healing and yoga practice to a full time business which brought me unparalleled joy!  Two years into my business, my Dad died. My father enabled my Mom in her mental illness. I was well aware the day he died I had lost both parents. Nine months later she had a nervous breakdown. Since then I had been her caregiver, parent, lawyer, advocate, nurse, chauffeur, accountant and personal shopper.  Those duties have defined daughter for 15 years.

The first thing to go was my music. There was absolutely no time for a regularly scheduled activity.  I started to wear down and had no time for my friends. No one seemed to understand the magnitude of caring for a mentally ill but physically sound semi-functional being. I struggled to keep my business going. I struggled to stay creative and fresh in my work. I struggled with my own sanity. I needed quiet. My connection to spirit and my own meditation practice kept me going.  My family was always a great support.

Still, along the way, my heart closed and I lost me. I felt constantly threatened and unsafe. I felt so afraid all the time about not having enough money for her care and being overwhelmed by the shear volume of work it entailed. Trusting in a Divine plan was often challenging. It was so hard to let go. Even my throat closed & I struggled with singing high notes. 

"There are times when I have to hurt through a situation and when this happens, the choice is not whether to hurt or not hurt, but what to do while I am hurting."  from In all our affairs. - Al-anon

I desire to open my heart and release these limitations of my expression of all good things.  Swami Satchidananda said that people who become enlightened are dedicated to peace. Without peace, we can not serve. Dedication is key to achieving a goal. I witnessed so many incredible examples of the rewards of dedication during the Olympics. The Olympics are an obsession at our house. We don't sleep for two weeks, we cheer, we cry! Nurturing a global community is an important awareness. The spirit and dedication of the athletes to practice and become the best is inspiring. Facing my fears, I signed up for voice lessons in July and will be concluding them with a solo in a recital August 26th. My voice has improved with practice but I still have some mental phobias on those high notes. My goal is to express all of my gifts with love and freedom.
The Universe has opened avenues so we can all live in a deeper awareness of our connection to Divinity. During Olympic track events I observed this behavior from the fastest man alive. In his preparation immediately prior to each race, Usain Bolt connects to source. I watched him each time, kneel and pray, make the sign of the cross and then lift his eyes to Heaven and smile.  He looked up in knowing familiarity to his Divine source. He smiled as if to an old friend. He made his connection before he raced and won gold every time. He always knelt in gratitude after winning, as well. His connection to Source was palpable and personal. I could feel his heart centered energy lifting my own goals of opening and trust.

I was shopping for a new yoga mat. A purple jute mat caught my eye. I liked the way it felt, then I realized it had an affirmation written in small letters across the top. When I first read the affirmation, I put the mat back. I felt unworthy of the affirmation. There is a funny commercial showing all the Olympians chanting their positive affirmations while traveling, much to the annoyance of one who wants to rest. We need to keep our minds on what we want instead of what we don't want. So, I bought the yoga mat, it simply says;
                                                                     I radiate love




"Know thyself. . . Nothing in excess"

These words are carved above the entrance to Delphi, the ancient Greek temple
of the Oracles

Do you fee like you are slogging through a swamp while life around you is speeding past? Well then, you're right where you need to be. At this moment Saturn, Mars, Pluto and on the 28th Mercury are in retrograde.  4 planets in retrograde is not common feat. Two more will join them, Neptune 6/13 and Uranus 7/29.  That's a whole lotta backward movement.  Retrogrades are periods of rest and reevaluation. It is time to slow down and re-align with our true self and purpose, time for spring cleaning.

We have gone through significant changes since 2012. The old is almost completely crumbled. Where do we stand now? How do we move forward from here and where are we exactly in our lives? These are the questions we must answer in retrograde. If you are trying to proceed with business as usual, that probably isn't going very well. Hunker down in silence and stillness to discover who you are now, after all the upheaval. This is the task at hand.

"Love is the flame that when kindled, burns everything away. God only remains" - Rumi

My Mom left this world on January 20th, 2016. she was never overly stable and when my father passed in 2001, she had a nervous breakdown. Since then I have been her caregiver, parent, lawyer, advocate, nurse, chauffeur, accountant and personal shopper.  Those duties have defined daughter for 15 years.

Now we are both free.  She is free of her suffering and mental illness and so am I.  All the above was quite a chore and often I missed the beauty right in front of me, like family, friends and a lot of creativity. Me and Mom had our own little world. Now it is finished. Who am i now that I am not Rita's daughter? Bits and pieces of my true self are bubbling up to the surface. I am singing and loving it. With this letter, I finally picked up a pen again. I am enjoying walks in nature and reading books. The creative juices are flowing, ready for spring. I am reconnecting with my family. I've been mentally and emotionally absent for so long. Yet, somehow, they still love me and I them. My friends as well.
I remembered how to laugh.

"When life gives you more than you can stand, kneel." - Church of St. Ignatius Loyola

The good, old familiar is still present, entwined now with the new. I am stronger now, even fierce! I am vulnerable and open. Relaxed. The self-love, integrity and courage it took to keep two opposing people alive was monumental. I have grown a lot and prayed even more. Little things bother me less. Slowly, gently, I refocus my life. I proved I could walk my talk. If I didn't I'd be dead now, too. So here I am, on this beautiful April day. It's not so much what I do but, how I do it. It's being with the ones I love, time doing things I love, stillness and silence. The rest is up to God. I've one the war. It's time to rest. I will meet you there.

"Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and right doing, there is a field. I'll meet you there."  - Rumi


Moving forward in the New Year

There is no fire like greed, no crime like hatred,
No sorrow like separation, no sickness like the hunger of heart
And no joy like the joy of freedom.
Health, contentment and trust ARE your greatest possessions
and freedom, your greatest joy.
Look within.
Be still.
Free from fear and attachment,
Know the sweet joy of living in the Way.
"Fom the withered tree, a flower flooms"  - Zen Proverb

   All of life is continually shifting, changing and evolving. In a universe where the evolutionary impulse is continually moving you into more. . .every experience serves an evolutionary function. Your perceived failures do not define. Failed marriages, career setbacks, financial disasters, pubilc humiliations and (fill in your own hit list of deficits and shortcomings) - none of these experiences ave been in vain. Failures provide us with an empathic connection to others.
     In freeing yourself of how life has been, you can now be empowered to open to fully receive future dreams, goals and successes. Remember, you needed to experience the shortfall as many times as you have in order to open to the wind fall that is on its way!
"I am open and willing to transform every perceived failure into the success that fuels my soul's agenda."  -  Panache Desai


There is a huge amount of freedom that comes to you when you take nothing personally  -  Don Miguel Ruiz



 Fall Events 2015

Chakras, Mudras and Mantras

Sunday, October 11th 2015

2-5pm  - Fee $40

In this movement and meditation workshop we will balance our chakras (energy centers) in the body using meditative hand and body postures as well as guided visuals and chanting meditations.

Angel Tarot Readings

Saturday, October 24th from 9:30am to 3:30pm

Special rate for this day is $30 for a 25 minute readings.

Please make a reservation. Day fills up quickly

Sacred Wells, Healing Water

Sunday, November 8th

2-5pm  -  Fee $40

I have received healing water from global healer Patricia Cota-Robles. Her team has collected healing water from over 100 sites all over the world.  This workshop will utilize this water to heal ourselves and the world.  You will also receive water to take home and through activation create more of your own.  This workshop also contains healing visual meditations and activations.

Check Calendar page for more information on events listed above. Call Sandy for more info or reservations 570-288-1785 or use contact page!


Eagle Wisdom 

"Not my circus, not my monkeys" - Old Polish Proverb as quoted on Facebook.

I'm back!  Had a great time in Vancouver BC and received a 50 hour certification in Yin Yoga from Bernie Clark author of the Complete Guide to Yin Yoga.

Vancouver is a welcoming, clean, green town.  I stayed and studied on Granville Island attached to the mainland of Vancouver city.  An island within a big city.  The studio is on a pier that looked out over the bay.  One morning during our Yin class, I was looking out the window and saw a bald eagle soaring over the water.  Effortlessly he flew with only an occasional flap of wings.  He was present in the moment and focused on his flight and probably looking for breakfast in the water below.  Relaxed in knowing he was in the flow.

In total contradiction to the eagles demeanor, three pigeons flapped behind trying to catch up with the eagle.  Maybe they were trying in vain to chase him away.  They flapped and fluttered and changed formations but they could never catch up with him.  He always stayed just out of their reach, without any effort I might add.  The eagle didn't seem to even notice the pigeons at all.  The pigeons were totally fixated on getting the eagle out of their territory.  They struggled in vain against the natural occurrence of things.  The eagle was serene and peaceful, oblivious to the distractions around him.  Focused mind, just like meditation. 

This scene was the perfect metaphor for the lesson I was about to learn.  Bernie Clark is an incredible educator, excellent at conveying information in an easily accessible manner.  I learned so very much especially about bone growth, anatomy and physiology and the principles of Yin yoga.  He also touched upon healing techniques of the East and West.  I got a great education in all.  The man actually IS a rocket scientist formerly employed by NASA!  I kid you not!

Read more: Eagle Wisdom

Promise of Love 


This is often my own procrastination.  It's just so darn easy to focus on someone else's  stuff.  The answers for another are always so clear.  Yet for myself, I could spin around forever before dealing or deciding.   I focus on others to avoid dealing with my own issues and situations in the present moment.  From my own upbringing, I have a strong need to correct and control the injustices I see in the world around me.  I wallow in a great sense of righteousness, perceiving that I have been so wronged by the world.  Being an intuitive and seeing clearly a way to assist others also adds to my shortcoming.  A gift always comes with a challenge.  I have worked very hard at only offering advice when I am asked and only stepping in when a hand is outstretched.  Some days standing back almost kills me.  But I have learned everybody has to grow in their own way.  Everyone has their own lessons to learn in their own way and time.  It's so not up to me.

Read more: Promise of Love

O’ Captain, My Captain! 


There is a Divine Order in all things.  An incredible flow of power, wisdom and love carries us to our highest good.  Not one sparrow falls without God's knowledge.  Every blade of grass has it's angel whispering "Grow, grow."  Ego is the part of us that resists this truth.  We can let ego limit us or reach inside and live a soul powered life.

I believe the day you enter this world and the day you leave are part of that Divine Order.  Untimely deaths don't fit the plan.  The people left behind after a tragic death grieve, but the soul itself rejoices in the total conscious reunion with Divine Love.  Pain and suffering, even the memory of pain are non existent.  The circumstances of death vary but when it's your day, it's your day. 

Robin Williams suffers no more.  He offers us the tremendous healing gift of grief.  Grief is the steam valve on the boilers of our humanness that prevents us from exploding.  Yet, so often we refuse to grieve, maybe thinking it's a sign of weakness, maybe thinking if we do we'll really "loose" our loved one.  Grief is woven through each day.  All our sorrows, loss of loved ones and pets, broken hearts, betrayals, ending of relationships, jobs, friendships, all create grief in our lives.  I find that people will morn a celebrity with great expression but often suppress the grief of a dearest loved one.  We can clear much by grieving Robin Williams.

Read more: O’ Captain, My Captain!

Memory of Trees 


Mercury is in retrograde until July 1st!  It's sort of like a storm stalled over your heart.  I hear your cries, my friends.  Many of you have shared your grief since the retrograde began and I would like to shed some light on the subject.  The retrograde occurs approx 3 times each year.  It lasts 3 to 4 weeks.  It is a time of introspection.  It's time for internal house cleaning of emotions, habits and beliefs that no longer serve you or hinder you from evolving into your joy.  Many of you are experiencing great grief.  STOP! and feel!  There is no moving forward until you do.  Our hearts are being broken open to let the poison out and the light that is buried beneath shine forth.  You are coming alive again.  You are learning to feel again.  This is living.  Emotions are energy in motion.  Simply acknowledging them and breathing it through is usually enough.  At this time of retrograde we can clear and heal ourselves and dream and create but to physically start a project will be spinning your wheels.  Tie up loose ends, finish what you started even if it was years ago.  Physical cleaning also helps.  Throw out the trash, recycle.  If we refuse to stop or slow down and look within, things will start breaking on a physical level.  Mechanical or electrical things, money shortages occur.  So stopping is best and easiest.


Read more: Memory of Trees

Winds of Change 


     As the earth moves beneath our feet and new mountains emerge from the depths of the sea, all that was hidden must now be revealed.  With nothing left to cling to and and no one to blame, we ourselves, immersed in the ocean within, diving below the surface again and again while it all rises up to meet us.  And so we learn to breathe into the turbulent waters of our emotions to find the inner anchor that holds still as the winds of change and uncertainty blow through our minds, our homes, our world.  Nowhere left to run,    right here,    right now,    open,     ready,    
it is time to return to wholeness to remember who we are.  ~~  Melissa Myers

The winds of change are blowing.  A big shift started with the full blood moon eclipse at passover and continued with the cardinal cross, where 4 planets lined up in the sky to form a cross.  The last time 2 planets lined up, the Vietnam war ended and the 60"s revolution began.  Now 4 have aligned.  I talked about riding this change in my last newsletter.  The changes were topped off by a solar eclipse on Monday, April 28th.  I felt these two poems spoke best about the changes and the advice I would give.  Remember anything unpleasant is simply old energy needing to be cleared, feel it, let it go,  breathe through it!  It doesn't define you!  It is not who you are!  This is your chance to be free!  Relax into the flow of change.  The heavy stuff is over.  You notice people being nicer to each other.  You will feel and ease of movement and grace in your life.  Know that grace is always there to support you.  Relax into the grace.  Spend lots of time in nature listening and healing!  Look for the angels and your loved ones around every corner.  It's a new day, It's a new life, it's a new world!  All is happening in Divine order for our highest good and happiness!  It is finished!  It is done  and it is so!


The true story, the one that resonates most, is that I stand on good ground, on solid ground.  I stand rooted in the truth and love and light and wellness.  May I hold my arms out wide and my head up high and stand tall like the tree upon this earth while the stories of fear and false beliefs flow past me like leaves being carried in the wind.  ~~ e.g. wise