Spring 2018

Current class schedule and individual appointment info on Locations Page. Detailed class & event info, calendar page, click event or class.


Kwan Yin Yoga

Saturday, April 21st

10am to Noon  -  $30

Experience the deep meditative stretching of Yin Yoga. Yin Yoga targets the ligaments, tendons and cartilage in the hip, groin, low back and legs that cause stiffness. We will touch on neck and shoulders as well. All postures done on floor. Movements are slow and postures are held for extended period of time. Breath, visuals, and mantras are used during postures. After approx an hour of postures we will close with a guided visual journey to receive healing elixir from the Kwan Yin (Compassionate One). This class will be tender and relaxing in it's nature. So come stretch and unwind. Bring a mat and blanket if you have them. Reservations requested 570-288-1785 or contact page. Walk-ins are welcome.


Angel Love Guided Meditation

Friday, May 4th

5:30 - 6:30pm $15 or class pkg

Guided visual journey meditation. Enjoy, relax and heal as you are guided through a meditation to clear negative energy and connect with angels to help you heal and deepen self love and appreciation. This is a great way to clear out stress and start your weekend off right. Bring mat and blanket if you have them. Comfy clothes. Also bring any other pillows or supports you will need to lie on the floor. I do have lots of mats, extra blankets and bolsters. If you are uncomfortable lying on the floor you may sit against the wall or in a chair.

No reservations needed. Walk-ins welcome. 


Detox and Relax Yoga and Meditation

Saturday, May 12th

10am - Noon   $30

Take time to nourish and refresh your body and mind. Approx and hour of yoga will focus on stretches to detox the body and restorative postures to support the adrenals and nervous system. We will close with a soothing guided visual meditation to soothe the mind and nervous system. Participants will also receive reiki healing energy during meditation. Bring a mat and blanket if you have them. Reservations requested 570-288-1785 or contact page. Walk-ins are welcome.


New Individual Services!

Healing Yoga - you will rest in restorative yoga postures while receiving reiki.

Crystal Bowl Healing Alignment - as you rest, bowls will be played to immerse you in sound and facilitate chakra healing and energy clearing

Shamanic Drumming Therapy - as you rest, energy will be cleared and physical and mental healing facilitated through shamanic drumming, chanting and rattles.

Remote Energy Healing - for a quick pick me up these phone sessions are a good way to get back on track when you are busy. Appointments suggested.

Angel Tarot Readings are available in person for approx 1 hour or

read by cell phone with txtd pics 30 min. 

Receiving cash, check or PayPal



Celtic Healing Service

Saturday, April 28th  

from 6 to 7pm - Donations

Held at St. Stephens's Episcopal Church

35 S. Franklin St.

Wilkes-Barre

An opportunity to gather for peaceful, hope-filled, reflection, meditation and prayer in the Celtic Spirit.


Check Calendar page for more information on events listed above. Call Sandy for more info or reservations 570-288-1785 or use contact page!

 

 

Moon Awakening

A poem in process by Sandy Seyler

The moon! The moon! She woke me up!
Shining through the pine tree,
Shining through the window,
Moon touches my face; eyes fly open.
Agitated; excited, I spring from bed, lured by false morning light.
I scan the dusky room, stunned.
Realizing her trickery, I rush to the window and thrust my head out.
I wonder what the neighbors would think
if I howled?
Inhaling stars, cool night air soothes me.
I surrender to the night and recall the moon rise that evening.
Her yellow cycloptic eye peered over the mountain's rim, spying on the valley below.
Now, her hypnotic beauty shines on me.
I sip moonlight  like a lovers kiss.
Basking in the silken glow, beams fill my soul.
Stray clouds drift over her face and my senses return. I  retreat to my bed where the moon enfolds me in gossamer arms and cradles me to dream filled sleep.
 



Moon eclipsed by the sun and very soon sun eclipsed by the moon. The planets are playing great games in the sky. The shifting of our evolution is at hand. We are moving into oneness. It's like discovering a new land. Everything is foreign and completely unknown. We don't speak the language.  Our past is almost forgotten. Nothing will ever be the same. We live like gypsies now. Not knowing or caring where we go, lost in the adventure. Rumi describes this oneness, the love of "him" the creator:

In love with him, my soul lives
the subtlest of passions.
Lives like a gypsy -
Each day a different house,
Each night under the stars.  -  Rumi


This new life we are creating will become our greatest dream. We must reinvent ourselves. Feeling disoriented, we cling to the past but, it slips through our fingers. Nothing works anymore. This process is scary, unsettling and exhilarating. We are being nudged to be true to ourselves and create our life anew. We navigate each moment as it arrives. Relax and trust. Let your heart fly. When we relax and connect to our soul everything flows from us and all situations work out without effort. Effortless effort as my teacher used to say. Trust that the Divine is pouring all that is best for you into your life. Nothing can change that truth.


New Services!!!

I have been guided to offer new therapies that will assist in moving through this challenging time.  I will be offering group and private sound healing with Ascension Chakra Crystal Bowls. These bowls not only align the 7 body chakras but the also the higher chakras that are specific to the evolution we are undertaking.  I am offering private sessions in Restorative Yoga combined with Reiki to help the glandular and nervous systems as well ease body pain, calm the mind and restore energy. Other new services:

Karuna Reiki
Shamanic Drumming Therapy
Remote Reiki sessions - mini phone sessions - available after first in person session. 


Winter 2018

 

Crystal Bowl Immersion

Sunday, February 18th

2-4pm Fee:$30

Enjoy, relax and heal in this crystal singing bowl sound bath. Chakras will be cleared and aligned with bowl and toning.  Guided visual will be offered. The ascencion chakras are needed now to navigate our life will open and be activated by these special bowls. 6 crystal bowls, metal bowls, bells and chimes will take you on a peaceful and healing journey. You will be lying on the floor for the majority of the time. Wear comfortable clothes. Bring yoga mat blanket, pillows, eye mask. Anything that will help you be comfortable. If lying is uncomfortable sitting against wall or in a chair is also an option. Some mats and blankets available. Please reserve a space. 570-288-1785 or email on site. 

 

 


New services!

Healing Yoga - you will rest in restorative yoga postures while receiving reiki.

Crystal Bowl Healing Allignment - as you rest, bowls will be played to immerse you in sound and facillitate chakra healing and energy clearing

Shamanic Drumming Therapy - as you rest, energy will be cleared and physical and mental healing facillitated through shamanic drumming, chanting and rattles.

Remote Energy Healing - for a quick pick me up these phone sessions are a good way to get back on track when you are busy. Appointments suggested.

Angel Tarot Readings are available in person for approx 1 hour or

read by cell phone with txtd pics 30 min. 

Receiving cash, check or PayPal



 

Drum Circle Dates will be announced soon!

 


Celtic Healing Service

Saturday, February 24th  

from 6 to 7pm - Donations

Held at St. Stephens's Episcopal Church

35 S. Franklin St.

Wilkes-Barre

An opportunity to gather for peaceful, hope-filled, reflection, meditation and prayer in the Celtic Spirit.


Check Calendar page for more information on events listed above. Call Sandy for more info or reservations 570-288-1785 or use contact page!

 

 

Oh, deer me!

    On a sunny Saturday in September, I had plans to dig four holes in the yard to place new plants. Digging a hole is not fun. It’s even less fun on top of a mountain. Approximately five inches down, CLINK! I hit the first rock.  I consider it lucky when I hit a monster rock. I clear the outline with my hands then wedge the pick axe under the edge and jimmy it out. I need dig no further, the hole it leaves behind is big enough for planting. This might be an all day job, so I continue eagerly.

     When I work in the yard, Carlos, my indoor cat, is allowed out to play. His ebony fur shines in the sun as he stalks through the yard.  I sense a presence and notice a delicate, spotted fawn grazing in the woods. I sigh with joy, as it munches greedily on the greenery, tail flicking. Carlos also notices and decides to investigate. He slinks toward the fawn, then, hides behind a tree. He repeats that process, cautiously moving closer and closer. At this pace, he will take a while, so, I continue digging. After a few moments, I hear a terrible sound. I look up in horror to see the Mama deer standing between Carlos and her baby. She tilts her head back and trumpets the warning again. When she lowers her head, the deer levels her gaze in my direction and walks purposefully toward me, ignoring Carlos. Mama deer comes to a halt at the border of the yard.  I call Carlos, and miraculously, he comes running. Scooping him up, I toss him in the house.

    As I return to my dig, the doe resumes her advance into the yard.  We are fifteen feet apart, at best. CRACK! Her hoof strikes the ground. She is staring me down, but, thankfully, the trumpeting has ceased. Her fawn meanders away from us.

     I speak to the deer like I’m talking a jumper down from a ledge.

“I’m not going to hurt you, or, your beautiful baby.”

I continue to chat and swing the pick axe, “Please stop eating my flowers. All that rain made the woods full and lush. No need to eat these flowers.”

     Finally, I lean on the pick axe and gaze into the eyes of this incredible creature. Mama continues to scrutinize me, nostrils flaring. I soften my energy and allow love to flow from my heart. I am in awe of this God moment. The doe steps even closer. We are about ten feet apart now.

 “I realize my flowers taste especially good. I use flower essences and ask the fairies to help them grow, but, there is no lack of food in the woods!” I scold.

     Then, closer still, she creeps, bending to sniff the flowers. I thought the doe would eat my flowers right in front of me! When Mama lifts her head, our eyes meet again. Her muscles quiver. I witness her power and pride, yet, I feel an incredible tenderness radiating from her. What a breathtaking moment. We are the same, Mama and I, protecting our babies. I repeat again, that I love her and mean no harm. I guess she believed me because she turns and bounds into the woods, a flash of speed and grace. The doe collects her fawn and they wander off.

Chosen

       by Sandy Seyler

Crack! Lightening spears clouds.
Crack! Lone pine tree stands.
Crack! Burnt offering.


The refiners fire is burning brightly. We are chosen. Female energy is rising to take her rightful place in equal measure with the masculine. We are transformed daily. The fire is hot. Hold fast to integrity. Our metal is being tempered in Divine image. Illusion is burned away. Only truth remains. Be present with what happens every moment. Like the doe, be fierce in nurturing. Stand in your power. Harm none. Respect all. Honor your hearts desires and petition the Divine. Follow your intuition and instincts. Take chances. Explore new trails.
How beautiful we are!

Autumn 2017

 


Drum Circle

Sunday, November 12th

2-4pm - No experience necessary $10

Please register if you need a drum. 570-288-1785

See calendar for details.



New Quiet Mind Meditation

Mondays 5-6pm

Luzerne Studio

Our minds are over stimulated by media and technology. Our feelings overwhelm us. It's time to take your life back from the chaos and return to the quiet.  Meditation reduces anxiety, stress and blood pressure. It increases mental focus, awareness and creativity. It also adds quality of present moment living which brings gratitude, appreciation and joy.  We will work with Pranayam, (breath techniques) to regulate the mind and ease pain.  We will practice verbally led meditation to bring peace and stillness to our mind. It will become like a still pond. Clear and still. This class is different from the morning meditation. We will spend approx 30 minutes with breath techniques and another 30 minutes with guided meditation.  We will be seated in chairs or on floor for entire class. Street clothes appropriate.  


Celtic Healing Service

Saturday, December 30th  

from 6 to 7pm - Donations

Held at St. Stephens's Episcopal Church

35 S. Franklin St.

Wilkes-Barre

An opportunity to gather for peaceful, hope-filled, reflection, meditation and prayer in the Celtic Spirit.

 


Angel Tarot Readings

Available by appointment anytime

 

I have been reading Tarot cards since the age of 12. Doreen Virtue has now created an Angelic Tarot Deck that I feel is safe and positive.  Using the guidance of the angels I will offer clear, effective, life changing readings.  I offer readings at my Reiki Studio in Edwardville. Regular readingd is $50/45min, 10 card readings are $75.  I have been a healer for 20 years, the healing energy will flow through the readings, clearing, releasing will occur.  I will also connect you to the angels in the cards that will help you in the situation of your concern. Please contact me to schedule an appointment.  570-288-1785 or email on this site.   Many blessings!



Price Changes effective after January 2nd

Yoga class change from $13 to $14 per class

Package of 6 with 6 month expiration is now $70

Initial Reiki Visit $75 - following visits or returning customers $70


 

Check Calendar page for more information on events listed above. Call Sandy for more info or reservations 570-288-1785 or use contact page!

 

 

 

Eclipse the Past

 

"Rest is not idleness and to lie sometimes on the grass, under trees on a summers day, listening to the murmur of the water or watching the clouds float across the sky is by no means a waste of time."  - John Lubbock "The Uses of Life"

How have you been? I know, I've been gone so long you're probably thinking, "Who is this?" Life is like that though, isn't it? Everything ebbs and flows. The only constant in life is change and change we are. We go through periods where we just can't seem to keep up or stay the same. That cycle helps us to uproot from outgrown tendencies and grow into a new phase in our evolution. The world right now is in that state. We are moving forward at lightening speed. NOTHING can stay the same. We are sorting out what serves and what does not. Even things we keep need to grow and be restructured. Idleness does not come easily to me. Due to changes in my work and home life, I have been given time to rest and enjoy my life.

We enjoyed and incredibly relaxing vacation in Aruba. I haven't been that still in a long time. It's quite easy in blue water with palm trees swaying and birds singing. I also recommitted to artistic creativity. I've had time to read, which I find incredibly restorative. I saw 9 movies at the Dietrich Summer Film Festival. I joined a writers group and am taking a writing class at Wilkes. I also learned a short, comprehensive new yoga routine for overall health which is being received quite nicely. I attended the Yoga Conference on Mental Health at Misericordia. It's been an active but relaxing summer. OK! So, by now you are probably wondering what planet I live on and if I ever turn on a TV. I believe I'm still on earth but the only TV I watch is Big Bang reruns and Turner Classic Movies.

"Clara found it easy to forgive most things in most people. Too easy, her husband Peter often warned. But Clara had her own little secret. She didn't really let go of everything. Most things, yes. But some she secretly held and hugged and would visit in moments when she needed to be comforted by the unkindness of others." - Louise Penny from Still Life

One of my reads this summer was the above Agatha Christie style mystery by Louise Penny. I found these lines so telling. As I contemplated this passage, my question is why is this true for me? Why is it that I, or anyone, would be comforted by the unkindness of others? I realized that for me a lack of esteem is secretly comforted when others acted badly. Then I could be worthy or even better than they. Also, unkindness in others lessens the self judgment of our own humanity. Finally, embracing negativity is considered normal and even celebrated. Modern media and social media runs rampant with it. Why have hope when the world is such a mess. We believe negativity protects us. In reality, fear and negativity ensure your victimization on some level. It's a self fulfilling prophecy. Our egos are masters of self destruction. They joyfully, incessantly seek chaos.

"Every one thinks of changing the world but no one thinks of changing themselves." - Leo Tolstoy

The eclipse opened a shift in the energy matrix of the planet so incredibly profound. The changes are restructuring our DNA, that means, body and mind. Our egos have long ruled the planet. An influx of Divine Feminine energy is balancing out that which has ruled for so long. Our brains are being rewired to there original state of truth. All will, at our own pace, "wake up" to our oneness with the Divine. We will now be able to easily access Divine wisdom, power and love. We think we know what those three words mean but, truly, we have only a skewed or minimal idea. When your shift occurs, your mind will be blown, literally! I am already feeling and utilizing access of the true wisdom. It helps me make better choices. Your life starts today. Every part of the past, family history, genetics, past trauma and suffering, even who you perceive yourself to be has been eclipsed. It's over. Let it go and watch your self evolve. The best days of your life are yet to come. More beautiful than you can imagine in this moment!

Some of the physical symptoms of the eclipse change have been neck and back pain, nausea and stomach issues, exhaustion, confusion and moodiness, just to name a few. This is a a rough part of the ride. Our perceptions will shift. We feel lonely and misunderstood. We are changing completely. Change brings truth. Every quality that is good will get better, only our negative traits and beliefs fall away. Self love and self care, rest and quiet time are crucial for our sanity. We NEED these things to make it through the transformation. The world around us is working itself out. Mother earth is cleaning herself and in her own shift. Avoid negativity at all cost. Take action where you can. Otherwise seek gratitude in each moment. Enjoy each day as it comes. The government is on it's own path. Let it roll. Tend to yourself. Positive energy has returned to the planet. Negative energy does not like that and it rails harder, but too late. Tolstoy is absolutely correct. He mirrors the teachings of the Buddha and Jesus Christ. The kingdom of Heaven is within. Stop feeding into the crap and live your life. The changes are naturally occurring. We must go with the flow. Do no harm. Be who you are. Be present especially, the answers are in the now. Your life in this moment does depend on rest, self care, self nurturing, meditation and inquiry and prayer. Take action in these areas and let go of what was once survival, LIVE!

 

Breaking Free

 

This human shape is a ghost made of distraction and pain, sometimes pure light, sometimes cruel, trying wildly to open this image tightly held within itself.  - Rumi

Cabin fever might have you splitting at the seams but a trip to the mall is not what you truly yearn for. Humanity is breaking free from the past. Everything is coming undone. Everything. Our souls are rising up. We are emptying our houses. Someone has died, the limited illusion of who we are. Only the lovely beauty of the soul remains. The limited illusion can no longer support life. We are seeking life on another planet. The planet is within us.

The signs of the wondrous growth are feeling lost and unfamiliar in your home, work, day to day routine and relationships. Everything seems foreign. Your memory may be poor or you may have gales of forgotten heartache rolling over you. No darkness can be carried forward. We are being reborn DNA & all. We may feel incredible fear of the future, the fate of humanity and our planet. Those of us that are scared to death are right on track.

What strange beings we are that sitting in hell, at the bottom of the dark, we are afraid of our own immortality. - Rumi

We are birds inside the egg. Chipping away at all the old patterns that have weighed us down for so long. Chipping away at our endless pursuit of distractions, the addictions to the material world that tempt us to believe that flesh, bone and money are all there is.

We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence then, is not an act but a habit.   - Aristotle

Be present with yourself. Notice your thoughts. Notice your actions, are they true to your heart? Do your actions match your words? What holds your attention? The soul is tapping on the inside. Reclaim your focus. Make loving positive thoughts your habit. Follow the new and release the old. Your true self is calling.

You can't hold a man down without staying down with him! - Booker T. Washington

What we focus on expands. To focus on another, understanding the motives and circumstances that cause another's  behavior is futile. To hold onto blame and resentment of others and self is to occupy our spirits with bitterness. We create and draw more negativity to ourselves. 

The chaos of our government and country is fulfilling a Divine plan beyond our comprehension. What we resist continues to control us. The old needs to fall. Already people, of their own creativity and ingenuity, are solving problems, growing food, helping others and finding new sources of fuel and natural medicines. The new world is already rising from the hearts of the people. The change occurred BECAUSE of the current dangers. Chaos spurred us into growth. People are softer and kinder. More connected and aware of the well being of "the whole". The change is rising from the people.

So today, find a more nurturing way to fill yourself up. The soul is tapping. Follow the nudges of your soul like bread crumbs out of the dark woods. Inquire within. Make choices, all choices from you soul. I sit in silence and ask "the God that I am" to guide and direct my day. I can feel the warmth respond. My soul rises to the task. Present moment meditation has also helped me navigate the chaos. Instead of responding from habit, break free and choose anew, every moment. What is best for my soul in this moment will also serve humanity. It's a win win. Happiness and a healthy humanity.

You are lover and beloved. You possess untapped power, love and wisdom. Relax into your soul. Open your heart to you! Feel the warmth. The whole adventure of this moment is loving and discovering you. The real blessed and beloved you.

 

Stairway to Heaven

 

If your dreams don't scare you, they're not big enough.  -  Muhammad Ali

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

I hope all had a wonder filled holiday season.  I enjoyed a restful and fun filled holiday and am ready for 2017! Let's get this party started!

I realize you may wonder where I've been. The summer Olympics and Usain Bolt where the topic of my last newsletter.  Truth be told, I was singing! Since childhood I have been a soloist, chorister and performer. Mom's breakdown in 2002 combined with self employment kept me from regularly scheduled extra curricular activities. It's been a long haul! Since my Mom's passing a year ago, I am slowly rediscovering who I am after 14 years as a caregiver.

 In September, I joined a church choir.  We performed very successful concerts for Veterans and Christmas and a large Christmas Eve service. I even had a solo during advent. Without singing, a part of me was missing. It is sheer bliss to share the gift of song. Music is a form of healing. It is very cathartic for performer and audience. It opens the heart. Music was my first healing modality and I have continued to expand the expression of love through holistic arts. I am happy and content.

In the years of caring for my mother, I thought the anguish and heartache would never end. What I learned is life is impermanent and all things, good or bad, no matter the duration, END! Except love of course! Love is the only real true thing in the Universe. All living things are made of this love energy. Love never dies, it simply changes forms. Personally, I love change and pray for it frequently but don't often like the changes sent my way. Our ego loves to build false security by anchoring down in material structure and patterns. The ego part of our brain hates and fears.  The soul longs to be free, unfettered by the chaos of the world.  Creativity of any kind feeds the soul. We are responsible for our own happiness.  We can choose happiness no matter the course of the day to day world. The key is when you feel afraid or angry tell your ego to "knock it off, go to your room." In this way we can reroute our brain to focus on the peace within.

The magnitude of changes we will face in this new year is inconceivable and so are the results. The old world is falling. The new is in place. We are moving from the hamster wheel of Karma to the Golden Spiral Staircase of evolution. With hope and courage we can  make the leap of faith and simply live our truth. No event or person can change the substance of your soul. So what do we "do"? LIVE! Have fun! Spend time with loved ones. Make time for the things you love. Create! Follow your dreams. Do not waste one precious moment on anything or anyone negative. Be present and be the best you, you can be each moment. Take action from your heart instead of re-acting to the chaos of the world. This year is about rediscovering YOU! If you live from your soul guidance ALL, everything, you need will be created by or attracted to your soul. You will be well cared for by the Divine Love of your soul.  What must be surrendered for this to happen is control. That needs to be surrendered to the Divine. Wake up! Hold fast to integrity of thought and deed, kindness, courtesy, compassion. Our behavior is our responsibility and our legacy.

Make the your heart the most beautiful thing about you!  - Evolver Social Movement

Going for Gold

 

When a butterfly is ready to emerge from its chrysalis, it chews a tiny hole in one end and forces its stunning new form through the small orifice.
Within this "struggle" of emergence, liquids from deep inside the butterfly's body are passed into the capillaries of its wings, then harden to ensure the strength and capability required for a butterfly to survive and fly.
When denied of this "struggle," the butterfly dies.
When you are struggling, rest easy in the understanding that you are a warrioress, dedicated to the ripened rewards of a proper initiation.   - Astromissive#329


Summer of fun and discovery. That was my intention. I did some drumming at Omega Institute in NY, toured the Rhinebeck area and had a wonderful and refreshing stay at Hemingway Lane B&B. I planted flowers. I painted a picture. I had a great healing session with a shaman, ate at a French cafe and purchased a new yoga mat. I read a book and took naps on a wonderful and relaxing beach vacation with my beloved. I had the sacred and holy experience of releasing my Mom's ashes into the ocean. She loved the ocean and was a tremendous swimmer. It was her request and quite possibly the only time in our lives "I made her happy!"  LOL! The experience freed me in many unexpected ways. I am grateful for it.

As many of you know, music was my first love.  I started singing in first grade. In my late thirties, I decided to build on two other long time passions. I took my part time healing and yoga practice to a full time business which brought me unparalleled joy!  Two years into my business, my Dad died. My father enabled my Mom in her mental illness. I was well aware the day he died I had lost both parents. Nine months later she had a nervous breakdown. Since then I had been her caregiver, parent, lawyer, advocate, nurse, chauffeur, accountant and personal shopper.  Those duties have defined daughter for 15 years.

The first thing to go was my music. There was absolutely no time for a regularly scheduled activity.  I started to wear down and had no time for my friends. No one seemed to understand the magnitude of caring for a mentally ill but physically sound semi-functional being. I struggled to keep my business going. I struggled to stay creative and fresh in my work. I struggled with my own sanity. I needed quiet. My connection to spirit and my own meditation practice kept me going.  My family was always a great support.

Still, along the way, my heart closed and I lost me. I felt constantly threatened and unsafe. I felt so afraid all the time about not having enough money for her care and being overwhelmed by the shear volume of work it entailed. Trusting in a Divine plan was often challenging. It was so hard to let go. Even my throat closed & I struggled with singing high notes. 

"There are times when I have to hurt through a situation and when this happens, the choice is not whether to hurt or not hurt, but what to do while I am hurting."  from In all our affairs. - Al-anon

I desire to open my heart and release these limitations of my expression of all good things.  Swami Satchidananda said that people who become enlightened are dedicated to peace. Without peace, we can not serve. Dedication is key to achieving a goal. I witnessed so many incredible examples of the rewards of dedication during the Olympics. The Olympics are an obsession at our house. We don't sleep for two weeks, we cheer, we cry! Nurturing a global community is an important awareness. The spirit and dedication of the athletes to practice and become the best is inspiring. Facing my fears, I signed up for voice lessons in July and will be concluding them with a solo in a recital August 26th. My voice has improved with practice but I still have some mental phobias on those high notes. My goal is to express all of my gifts with love and freedom.
 
The Universe has opened avenues so we can all live in a deeper awareness of our connection to Divinity. During Olympic track events I observed this behavior from the fastest man alive. In his preparation immediately prior to each race, Usain Bolt connects to source. I watched him each time, kneel and pray, make the sign of the cross and then lift his eyes to Heaven and smile.  He looked up in knowing familiarity to his Divine source. He smiled as if to an old friend. He made his connection before he raced and won gold every time. He always knelt in gratitude after winning, as well. His connection to Source was palpable and personal. I could feel his heart centered energy lifting my own goals of opening and trust.

I was shopping for a new yoga mat. A purple jute mat caught my eye. I liked the way it felt, then I realized it had an affirmation written in small letters across the top. When I first read the affirmation, I put the mat back. I felt unworthy of the affirmation. There is a funny commercial showing all the Olympians chanting their positive affirmations while traveling, much to the annoyance of one who wants to rest. We need to keep our minds on what we want instead of what we don't want. So, I bought the yoga mat, it simply says;
                                                                     I radiate love

 

Unearthed

 

"Know thyself. . . Nothing in excess"

These words are carved above the entrance to Delphi, the ancient Greek temple
of the Oracles


Do you fee like you are slogging through a swamp while life around you is speeding past? Well then, you're right where you need to be. At this moment Saturn, Mars, Pluto and on the 28th Mercury are in retrograde.  4 planets in retrograde is not common feat. Two more will join them, Neptune 6/13 and Uranus 7/29.  That's a whole lotta backward movement.  Retrogrades are periods of rest and reevaluation. It is time to slow down and re-align with our true self and purpose, time for spring cleaning.

We have gone through significant changes since 2012. The old is almost completely crumbled. Where do we stand now? How do we move forward from here and where are we exactly in our lives? These are the questions we must answer in retrograde. If you are trying to proceed with business as usual, that probably isn't going very well. Hunker down in silence and stillness to discover who you are now, after all the upheaval. This is the task at hand.

"Love is the flame that when kindled, burns everything away. God only remains" - Rumi

My Mom left this world on January 20th, 2016. she was never overly stable and when my father passed in 2001, she had a nervous breakdown. Since then I have been her caregiver, parent, lawyer, advocate, nurse, chauffeur, accountant and personal shopper.  Those duties have defined daughter for 15 years.

Now we are both free.  She is free of her suffering and mental illness and so am I.  All the above was quite a chore and often I missed the beauty right in front of me, like family, friends and a lot of creativity. Me and Mom had our own little world. Now it is finished. Who am i now that I am not Rita's daughter? Bits and pieces of my true self are bubbling up to the surface. I am singing and loving it. With this letter, I finally picked up a pen again. I am enjoying walks in nature and reading books. The creative juices are flowing, ready for spring. I am reconnecting with my family. I've been mentally and emotionally absent for so long. Yet, somehow, they still love me and I them. My friends as well.
I remembered how to laugh.

"When life gives you more than you can stand, kneel." - Church of St. Ignatius Loyola

The good, old familiar is still present, entwined now with the new. I am stronger now, even fierce! I am vulnerable and open. Relaxed. The self-love, integrity and courage it took to keep two opposing people alive was monumental. I have grown a lot and prayed even more. Little things bother me less. Slowly, gently, I refocus my life. I proved I could walk my talk. If I didn't I'd be dead now, too. So here I am, on this beautiful April day. It's not so much what I do but, how I do it. It's being with the ones I love, time doing things I love, stillness and silence. The rest is up to God. I've one the war. It's time to rest. I will meet you there.

"Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and right doing, there is a field. I'll meet you there."  - Rumi